How I faced my fears, found my purpose and unlocked my greatest life ever!

Isn’t this what we all want?? To overcome life's obstacles and live the life God intended.

Isn’t that the purpose? 

Yes, indeed!

You were not created to meander through life without purpose. You were created to enjoy life and the purposeful things in it.

You were created to experience the full promises of God’s blessings, and Ohhhhh are they great, honey! His blessings! His Promises! They are beyond your wildest dreams.

But first things first… 

Facing my fears started with an honest evaluation of myself and my behaviors.  Why do I do certain things? Why do I respond certain ways?  Why do I have certain habits? What are my emotional triggers and why?

I had to open myself up to the scrutiny of the Holy Spirit and admit that I had several deep rooted fears in my life that had caused me to compromise my standards and settle for less than God’s best.

Fear is the root of compromise!

Wherever you find yourself compromising your standards and the Will/Word of God in your life, the root cause is fear.  It takes courage to trace the seed of the root so that you can confront it and be healed in that area but you can do it.  You cannot pretend it doesn’t exist and simply pray for healing.  You must uproot fear by confronting it with truth.  

For me, I lived with a fear of abandonment that was deposited when my parents divorced and my father moved away.   While they have since reconciled and remarried, I carried this fear long after this occurred and it led to several poor relationships with men where I allowed myself to be mistreated.  

For a long time I blamed men, but the problem was me. I allowed it. The issue with relationships in our current society is not that there are not enough good men.  The problem is that there are not enough women who know exactly who they are and refuse to be treated in any way that does not match up with their divine worth & value.

So I had to go on the journey of finding myself, and boy was that a whirlwind! I must have a tried everything….everything except the One thing.  I did everything but totally submit myself to God. Oh, I submitted parts of myself, and I was still so unhappy with my life.  What was missing was purpose. Without purpose, we are all left to chase what seems right and good for us.

Prov 16:25 There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it is the way of destruction.

The difference between what seems right and what is right is Purpose.  You can only find purpose in a submitted relationship with God. Not partially submitted, but totally unashamed and unbridled submission to God. Now, I can tell you that this is not a “good-looking” life in the beginning.  

When I decided to “get real” with God, I had to expose everything, and let me tell you girl, it was NOT a pretty sight. I had lied and deceived myself about myself for so long, that not even I recognized the person who sat before God crying, “Here I am, help me.” But I did it. 

I exposed everything to Him. I admitted everything to Him. I stopped pretending I was healed. I stopped saying I was confident. I stopped believing I didn’t need anyone.  I stopped thinking I was strong.  I stopped accepting the life I had.  I was desperate for the life He promised.  I wanted it bad.  And then He gave it to me.

Jeremiah 18:4
Then I went down to the potter's house, and there he was, making something on the wheel. But the vessel that he was making of clay was spoiled in the hand of the potter; so he remade it into another vessel, as it pleased the potter to make.

You see, I wanted to LOVE my life. I wanted to love myself. I needed a new me because the old me just wasn’t good enough anymore.  I presented myself spoiled in His Hands and it pleased Him to remake me.  Did you catch that? It pleased Him to remake me.

If you’ve allowed yourself to think you’ve gone too far or veered too far off course or gotten so far off track or messed up so bad that you are spoiled, let me encourage you! It’s okay!  He is waiting to remake you. He is anxious to remake you.

Maybe you’ve found yourself in a compromised situation and can’t find your way out.  
Maybe you’re stuck in a relationship and don’t know how to get out.

Maybe you’ve given in to your flesh driven desires for so long that you’re unsure how to stop.

Maybe you’ve stopped spending intimate time with Him the way you should.

Maybe you’ve convinced yourself that as a Christian, you don’t need church and the fellowship of other believers.
Maybe you've gotten tired of the religious rituals of church, so you’ve stopped going altogether.

Maybe you’ve slacked up on your commitment to God. Maybe you’ve completely abandoned it.

Wherever you are…its okay! He is waiting for you!  But you must present yourself to Him. HE is the key, and he is waiting to give you the life you’ve never dreamed of! Not the one you’ve always dreamed of, but the one you could never imagine because you’re not capable of thinking about your life the way He does.

When I allowed myself to be open and exposed before Him, He gave me the greatest gift ever…Himself. He didn’t give me stuff. He didn’t give me a stress-free journey.  He gave me HIM, and in giving me HIM, he also gave me….well, ME.

In Him, I found my purpose. This is it. The words and letters on this page is why my life matters.  He helped me to see that everything I had gone through, all the pain, all the tears, all the mistakes, all the fears, all the victories, all of it, good and bad, was for this….so that I could share with you my path, in hopes that you will use it and realize that you are only once decision away from finding your own.

Genesis 50:20 You meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. 

And now the life I live is filled with joy & peace. Never a dull moment with a great Hubby & five kiddos, I get to live the life He promised.  In addition to loving the “remade” me like never before, I get to love a great guy and be a mom to great sons & daughters.  It’s amazing! 

Some days I still can’t believe He did it, but He did.  He did it for ME….little ol’ me.  I’m not special (well I do sometimes think I’m His favorite).  But I can tell you that if he can remake this lump of clay, then He can remake anyone.  

You have access to the Key. All you have to do is use it to unlock your greatest life ever.  

Go get it girl!